A hard night reflecting on hard things....

Should I care about how you may feel at the expense of what I am experiencing?
My anger and confusion is worth your complete happiness?
My longing and hardship are not non-existent because you require them.
You are making me feel this. I feel rejected and ignored because I cannot be included. It is impossible to include me? Do you not want me to be? Are you ashamed of me?
The work is not worth it? Then am I not worth the effort? I'm confused!



I'm upset!!! I am a transparent person. You know everything!! I feel like you hardly share anything beyond what I could see myself. Do you not trust me? Are you trying to protect my feelings? Are you leaving me in the dark on purpose? Why?!?

Ticking

Ticking

A ballooning feeling rises up.
The truth welling from within.
Anger explodes
Say the truth! Project the feelings!
Silence is a buffer. Don't let them know.
Slay the truth. Protect the feelings
Be called sensitive. Enjoy it.
Be a safe place. Bottled within.
Pressure building, anger mounting.
Fear overflowing, anger mounting.
Annoyance seething, anger mounting.
Opinions revealed, anger flowing.
Feeling crushed, anger not abating
Friends gone, anger boiling
Friends? Friends?
Truth laid bare.
Feelings? Open.
Sensitive?
To whom?
Myself

Yearning

Yearning.

The heart desires what it cannot have
The body needs what i cannot give it.
The heart aches for a warm embrace.
The body pangs for familiar affection.
The heart yearns
for a true companion
The body cries
for that isn't you.
Time reunites us, Whole again!
What is it that stops us?
This is not how it began.
Why this pain?
Who would choose this!!!
Trust that it is not in vain.
What is its meaning?
Trust.
But Why THIS abyss?
That's how we make it?
Trust that HE has some reason
That HE is guiding
That you must. Keep. Abiding.
Trust.
In the end,
you can show others That IT IS possible.
You did. not. bend.
Be their light
It's not impassible
It won't last much longer.
Show them what is stronger.
Show them HE is stronger.